Post by Liander on Sept 27, 2009 3:47:30 GMT -8
I've been in this city for a little over two years now. Like everyone else, I've had my ups and downs. I've cried, laughed, and fought. Been zeroed more times than I can count. More recently, I've had to make some decisions that have strongly affected my life, and the person I might one day become. Thinking about this, I realize that every decision I've made, whether small or large, has affected me in ways that I could not have fathomed at the time. So I must now ask myself... Do I regret any of it?
First and foremost, I regret ever joining the Midnights. While it was fun at the time, I was relatively unknown in the city before my time with them. I am sorry that the first impression I made to most of you was that of a jackass. I did things I'm not proud of, and all for nothing.
I regret that I had to go through so many sires before finding the perfect one for me. I do not, in any way, ever regret siring under Pea. She is the closest thing I've had to a mother during my time in the city. She's guided me through dark times, found me when I was lost, and most importantly, she is always there for me, as I am for her. I back every one of her decisions with everything I am, and yet it still does not seem as if I can ever repay her for the amazing things she has done for me.
I do not regret leaving the Ferrymen, nor do I regret burning whatdidyousay with holy water on my way out the door. I love the idea of what the Ferrymen are supposed to be, but as many of you know, the idea of a thing and what it actually chalks up to be in practice are two completely different things. There was a misunderstanding shortly before I left, and to this very moment, I remain firm in that I did nothing so wrong as what they wanted to punish me for.
I regret that I had to lose so many of my friends through the choice of leaving the Ferrymen. Indeed, I lost those closest to me with this decision. I wish I had not, but my decision remains firm, and I have done what is best for me. I'm sorry for those who feel hurt or wronged, and I am especially sorry to one person in particular. Whether you believe it or not, you were my best, and sometimes only, friend. I love you.
To all those who have crossed paths with me - I regret that I did not leave the best possible impressions. My darker emotions often guide my words and actions, and in my anger and hate, I have done things I wish I could take back.
With these words, I hope that those of you who think negatively of me will see that I am trying to become a different, better man.
First and foremost, I regret ever joining the Midnights. While it was fun at the time, I was relatively unknown in the city before my time with them. I am sorry that the first impression I made to most of you was that of a jackass. I did things I'm not proud of, and all for nothing.
I regret that I had to go through so many sires before finding the perfect one for me. I do not, in any way, ever regret siring under Pea. She is the closest thing I've had to a mother during my time in the city. She's guided me through dark times, found me when I was lost, and most importantly, she is always there for me, as I am for her. I back every one of her decisions with everything I am, and yet it still does not seem as if I can ever repay her for the amazing things she has done for me.
I do not regret leaving the Ferrymen, nor do I regret burning whatdidyousay with holy water on my way out the door. I love the idea of what the Ferrymen are supposed to be, but as many of you know, the idea of a thing and what it actually chalks up to be in practice are two completely different things. There was a misunderstanding shortly before I left, and to this very moment, I remain firm in that I did nothing so wrong as what they wanted to punish me for.
I regret that I had to lose so many of my friends through the choice of leaving the Ferrymen. Indeed, I lost those closest to me with this decision. I wish I had not, but my decision remains firm, and I have done what is best for me. I'm sorry for those who feel hurt or wronged, and I am especially sorry to one person in particular. Whether you believe it or not, you were my best, and sometimes only, friend. I love you.
To all those who have crossed paths with me - I regret that I did not leave the best possible impressions. My darker emotions often guide my words and actions, and in my anger and hate, I have done things I wish I could take back.
With these words, I hope that those of you who think negatively of me will see that I am trying to become a different, better man.