Post by Zuri on Nov 15, 2009 15:35:38 GMT -8
I don't have a soapbox so I'm going to post my thoughts on Shina's severance from my family here.
Shina, I've seen the conversations you had with Inu and I have to say that you are, self admittedly, crazy beyond all reason. For all of the reasons to come back into our family and then leave it this must be one of the most pathetic ones I've ever seen.
You can make all the excuses you want to try and answer to the pain and suffering you have undoubtedly caused my sire, but in the end the blame will fall squarely and wholly on your shoulders. You can blame the fact that no one in the family is close to you; that can be answered by one of two reasonings. 1. That some of us were unwilling to trust that you wouldn't just cast us aside when you saw fit, or 2. That you yourself did not put forth the effort to find the closeness and coddling that you sought in our family.
You can say that this will save Anna suffering in the long run. You know for a fact that this is not the case and that you say it to ease your own heavy conscience. My sire has waited for years for you to figure your shit out and decide what you really want. I am glad that you figured that out, I'm sad, however, because you cannot seem to realize that we would've supported your decision no matter how stupidly or ill-informed it might have been. In case you're wondering, that's what families do.
You can also try to claim that you're broken, a shimmer of what you once were, blah de fucking blah. At the end of the day, the only person who controls who you are is you, plain and simple. You've allowed yourself to become so jaded, lost, confused and downright socially retarded that the only person who you can blame for that is yourself. And the only person who can change it at all is yourself.
It is my sincere hope that you're not hoping to find salvation in your puppet-master. It is my utmost wish that you find what you're looking for, however, I know you won't. I just want you to keep in mind, while you lay awake at night wistfully dreaming for your premonition to come true, that what you do cannot be blamed on anyone else but yourself. That what you've done is your burden to carry. That you've lost the respect and love of many people in undertaking this selfish and foolish action. And finally that you have not done this for any reason except to meet your own idiotic and pathetic means.
Ever yours,
Zuri Petteri Adaire-McLeod
Shina, I've seen the conversations you had with Inu and I have to say that you are, self admittedly, crazy beyond all reason. For all of the reasons to come back into our family and then leave it this must be one of the most pathetic ones I've ever seen.
You can make all the excuses you want to try and answer to the pain and suffering you have undoubtedly caused my sire, but in the end the blame will fall squarely and wholly on your shoulders. You can blame the fact that no one in the family is close to you; that can be answered by one of two reasonings. 1. That some of us were unwilling to trust that you wouldn't just cast us aside when you saw fit, or 2. That you yourself did not put forth the effort to find the closeness and coddling that you sought in our family.
You can say that this will save Anna suffering in the long run. You know for a fact that this is not the case and that you say it to ease your own heavy conscience. My sire has waited for years for you to figure your shit out and decide what you really want. I am glad that you figured that out, I'm sad, however, because you cannot seem to realize that we would've supported your decision no matter how stupidly or ill-informed it might have been. In case you're wondering, that's what families do.
You can also try to claim that you're broken, a shimmer of what you once were, blah de fucking blah. At the end of the day, the only person who controls who you are is you, plain and simple. You've allowed yourself to become so jaded, lost, confused and downright socially retarded that the only person who you can blame for that is yourself. And the only person who can change it at all is yourself.
It is my sincere hope that you're not hoping to find salvation in your puppet-master. It is my utmost wish that you find what you're looking for, however, I know you won't. I just want you to keep in mind, while you lay awake at night wistfully dreaming for your premonition to come true, that what you do cannot be blamed on anyone else but yourself. That what you've done is your burden to carry. That you've lost the respect and love of many people in undertaking this selfish and foolish action. And finally that you have not done this for any reason except to meet your own idiotic and pathetic means.
Ever yours,
Zuri Petteri Adaire-McLeod
